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- Authors: Nicole Blanchard
- Language: English
- Genre: Romantic Suspense
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There are mornings when I wake not knowing or caring what day of the
week it is. Sometimes, I go whole stretches of time without ever
checking the date. I prefer it that way.
There’s less chance of my having the hope of a better life if all the
nothingness blurs together.
Above me, my husband labors over my body with practiced movements
my own recognizes and responds to, if only out of habit. His head carefully
tilts to the side so he doesn’t have to look me in the eye. As he’s told me
countless times, “Fucking doesn’t have to be personal to be effective.”
Somehow, he’s taught my body to believe him.
Played it and tuned it as
finely as a musician tunes an instrument. He molds and shapes me to his
liking, and I let him until I’m nothing more than a thing he programs for his
pleasure—his real-life porn queen/sex robot. It’s a wonder something so
mistreated can still respond to the cause of its neglect.
The soft scrape of his buzzed haircut rubs the side of my face raw. It’s
an irritation I don’t dare turn away from. The smell of sex, musk and
lubricant, fills my nose, so I switch to moaning from my mouth. He likes it
when I make noise, even if it’s more for his benefit than any real reaction to
anything he’s doing between my legs.
Fingers bruise the skin on my wrists as easily as they can crush the
delicate flesh of a peach. Fingers that once were cause for delight but now
cause nothing but devastation. Vic’s movements quicken at my strangled cry
until he drives into me at an unrelenting pace. I lift my hips in time with his,
if only to stoke to life a spark guaranteed to burn away the nothingness my
existence has become. Anything to forget.
Each thrust of his cock mixes pleasure and pain until I don’t know how
to differentiate one from the other. Until they blend into the fathomless
darkness I’ve come to know and love. I reach for it, yearning for it to wrap
me in its bleak comfort.
His grunts draw me in the other direction, back toward reality. The
pleasure ekes away with each of his sharp exhalations in my ear, the keen
edge of oblivion dulled to an irritating reminder. An itch to go unscratched.
I want to growl and claw at him, but I twist my fists into the bedspread
instead and pinch my eyes closed until moisture leaks from the corners and
down my cheeks to wet my pillowcase. Beside us on the nightstand, an
alarm drones, and I mentally countdown the long minutes until he finishes
and I can reach over and turn it off.
With his arms a relentless cage around me, he stiffens above me and
groans. The promise of oblivion fades, taking the blissful sense of
nothingness with it. The beeping punctures the promised haze of relief and
reality claws its way back. The sweat sticking our torsos together reminds
me of how dirty I feel, but I know it’s best if I don’t move, best just to wait
until he gets off me.
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