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Sometimes the anger inside me is too much to contain. It’s a poison that I
can’t let fester because I’d kill an innocent. I cope by letting it out a little
at a time; by being an asshole.
I joined Hell’s Jury because my brothers can handle my rage. I don’t
have to take it out on the real world when I have my MC brothers to beat
the fury out of me.
They think I’m a bastard and they’re not wrong. I deliberately bait
them, push them to their limits. The pain of a good punch or knee to the
stomach douses the fire that flames through me. The Jury – my brothers —
can fuck me up all they want.
I also need a place where I won’t mess around with drugs because on
my own I’m powerless to addiction. When I’m high, I’m an out-of-control
lunatic who’ll do anything to anyone who crosses my path.
The club is my asylum.
I don’t hit anyone who can’t take me on. That’s a lot of people. I’m not
soft or principled. There’s no satisfaction in destroying someone who can’t
defend themselves. I don’t care if they live or die as long as I’m not the one
involved in the outcome.
I used up all the fucks I had to give a long time ago. I know I’m not
gonna die of old age in my bed. I’m 26 years old. If I’m lucky, maybe I’ll
live to see 30. I don’t fucking care – I’ve been dying inside since I was a
kid. I’m too much of a coward to end myself so I wait for the day someone
does it for me.
While I bide my time, old wounds won’t heal. No one can fully be
trusted. No one gets past my defenses. No one escapes my hatred.
Or that’s the way it was. Then I met Peyton.
Before her, I didn’t think I had a shred of humanity, but when she
entered my orbit, she knocked my world off its axis. She’s as broken as I
am; as full of fear as I am of anger. My brothers don’t believe I’ll treat her
right and so they’re vigilant, waiting for the day I make a mistake.
I’ve been lookin’ after her since we rescued her from the Blackbeards,
Hell’s Jury’s enemies.
She’d been sleepin’ at the Jury’s clubhouse for the past few months, but
I could see her getting more and more depressed. Most of the guys have
their own places, but a few of us live full-time at the clubhouse. I had my
own bedroom and it worked for me. All I needed was a place to park my
bike and my boots.
For me, home is a fucked-up notion.
But I got an apartment for Peyton’s sake. Two bedrooms, a living room,
and a kitchen. It only has one bathroom, which we share. The deal is that
she’ll keep house and cook for me, and I’ll be the badass who earns the
bread. I promised to give her money every payday, enough for her to be
independent if she wants.
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